Sunday, March 12, 2006

Beginning to Understand...

I am beginning to understand...

My time is not meant to be spent on,
People who do not know what I am doing;
People who do not know why I am doing;
People who do not know how much I am doing...
Just to see that they are happy.


It is not because they do not know.
It is because they do not make an effort to know.

I am beginning to understand...

My time is meant for,
People who see what I am doing;
People who see why I am doing;
People who see how much I am doing...
Just to see that they are happy.


It is not because they see.
It is because they make an effort to see.


What we have been doing...
Why we have been doing...
How much we have been doing...


Just Not Long Ago.
I had a Gullible Thought.
Just Do What I Can for Others
Without Asking for Anything in Return.

Yet Just Not Too Long Ago.
I had Another Thought.
I Can't Do What I Can For Others
Without Asking for Anything in Return.


I Want Something In Return.
To tell me I am doing right.
To tell me that it is all worthwhile.
To tell me to keep going.


All I want in return:
Appreciation.

10 Comments:

Blogger A Blue Tie said...

Glad you have found what u need / want (i am not sure which one is it for you...?) i'm still searching for it...

March 12, 2006 3:15 AM  
Blogger Dreaming_Firefly said...

Many times,
I want myself in a way,
Yet I end up being in another way.
Contradictory.
Don't you think so? =)
I guess, we can only take things as they come?...

Hope that you will find what you are seeking for in life.
Regards

March 12, 2006 11:42 AM  
Blogger Rhiannon said...

Hell yeah dreaming_firefly I am so learning this lesson also..

Also if you are constantly giving to others and they only learn to take from you you just get taken advantage of and walked all over like a doormat. Its a form of manipulation. I'm still looking for the balance of boundaries. Its seems nice people pay for helping others..sad but true. Yet we still must give or everyone will just give up!..Only thing is I find whenever I do speak up to that person taking advantage of me they will just tear into you on the defensive and out of guilt so they don't have to carry their "stuff" and throw it back at you trying to make you feel bad about yourself. Many people are real good at this too in this life that we live in. Its not easy for sure..Where is the balance of getting some help love and support and getting some of this back also? So far I haven't found it myself..still "looking'..but still "believe"..

I know what I need but it doesn't necessarily mean I will get it thats for sure! Oh check out my most recent blog maybe you might find it helpful maybe not who knows?..:)

Blessings to you sweet friend,

Rhi

March 12, 2006 6:41 PM  
Blogger Rhiannon said...

oops! meant check out my most recent posts I put up tonite...

Your Birthday greeting was so much appreciated thanks for thinking of me my friend..

Rhi

March 12, 2006 6:44 PM  
Blogger Dreaming_Firefly said...

Dear Rhiannon...
What you have said is soo true.
You know, after some time,
I start to feel demoralised and get tired of showing care and concern.
I think to myself sometimes:
"Do not take it as I am not obliged to do this for you. I could have used my time on something/someone more worthwhile."

Ya, I am still searching for the point of balance.
To be honest, I stop "believing" sometimes. Your words make me want to "try believing" again.
Thank you. =)

Note: The birthday greeting is just a simple gesture of expressing my appreciation of the existence of you, as a person, as a friend, as a talent... ^-^

March 12, 2006 7:13 PM  
Blogger A Blue Tie said...

"Dreaming_Firefly said...
Many times,
I want myself in a way,
Yet I end up being in another way..."

-- i believe that is very natural, i mean how many of us end up being want we want..not many i guess. So yeah...we can only take things as they come..do we have a choice???

March 18, 2006 3:22 PM  
Blogger Dreaming_Firefly said...

Blue Tie...
I agree with you.
For many things, we indeed do not have a choice at all.
Yet for other things, even if we are given a chance to choose, we may not make a good one.
Don't you think so?...

Thank you for the sharing. =)

March 18, 2006 7:03 PM  
Blogger A Blue Tie said...

Yes..thats right, we are as humans very vulnerable to making wrong choices. Some learn from it, others regret. At times i've stopped by and was glad to find; i did not have a choice...

makes life a bit simpler..:-)

Thanks for visiting blue ties, didn't notice your remarks there until now.

March 19, 2006 4:35 AM  
Blogger brad4d said...

my son told me they took the word "gullible" out of the dictionary, he's always deepening my appreciation for light-hearted goofs, but like you I have heavy thoughts to shead . .I can tell spring will bring (you) many butterflies!

March 22, 2006 11:47 PM  
Blogger Dreaming_Firefly said...

It is amazing how people around us trigger certain thoughts in us. Sometimes, even a little kid can bring much reflection.
Thank you for dropping by and leaving your most-appreciated comment.
Wishing you beautiful days ahead. =)

March 24, 2006 11:33 PM  

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