Losing control...

Piles of work to be done.
Just too much catching up.
Cannot do it. Nothing gets done.
How to keep myself going on?
Frustration.
Exhausted.

I hate myself.
I am not supposed to give any more trouble.
I disallow myself to give them any more problems.
I forbid myself to be of a burden anymore.
Them, I mean my loved ones.
More of these nonsense, they cannot take it.
Enough, from me.

I must hang in there, with all I can.
On my own.
No other people in my world. No one, besides them.
I know. I realise. I understand.
Besides, who else to depend except ourselves?
Everything lies in our own hands.

I will. I must. I should... I try.
Step by step. Bit by bit.
To fight the battle.
To end it in a beautiful way - in my way.

To start with,
I have eased my emotions.
Feeling so much better.
Calm and peaceful, finally.
Better to get things going.

(n_n) Life is strong.
Mine is going strong.
Keeping a cheerful disposition keeps you going stronger.
This should be the way.
It shall be my way.